on apathy, amazing things, and the day to day

Lately, I’ve noticed that I am having trouble engaging. I show up, but am not invested, not wanting to dig in.  I am not sure what started it, but that is the way of apathy, slowly creeping in, like a fog.  I am praying for the Son to break through all of the fog–which He has been doing a little at a time.

Like in the amazing things.  I have been amazed by the way God has shown up this week–even the past two days.  First, Carole #3 gave me $40 to go to the dollar store to get toiletries for women at a homeless shelter we will go to next Tuesday.  I figured I would be able to get some things, but I only had  so far that the money could go.

I found toothpaste, toothbrushes, soap, deodorant, hand sanitizer, hand lotion, even a small pack of gum, as well as the gift bags to put it all in and still had $1.56 left over.  It seemed that every time I thought I had out-spent the amount I had, God stretched it.  I was amazed. I am still shaking my head over it and smiling.

Yesterday I got a text from my husband talking about a surprise waiting for me when I came home. He’s been talking about getting ducklings for our farm lately.  I was sure I was going to come home to find  little fuzzy ducklings in his hands.  Instead, I found a set of iPads; a black one for him, a white one for me.

A few months ago at Prayer Group, Betty had challenged me to not put constraints on God. My husband and I often use the phrase, “Someday, when we’re rich and famous we’ll do…” or “we’ll get…”Betty told me to trust God’s time table, not my own. She was right.

I had expected to have to wait for at least 5 years before being able to afford an iPad.  Here God was giving me something in less than 4 months. I am so glad I listened to Betty.  Not because God operates like “Santa Claus”, but because I would have missed the richness of the blessing–knowing He has perfect timing.

So, my day-to-day needs to be simple;  Go forward, trusting God for what He has done, is doing and is going to do.  

“The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it (1 Thessalonians 5:24).”  

For the word of the LORD is right and true; he is faithful in all he does (Psalm 33:4).


About gretchenr17

Wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend. Writer, farmer, fellow sojourner... at every turn I learn a bit more about God's wild mercies.
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One Response to on apathy, amazing things, and the day to day

  1. L. Dean Hufsey says:

    Good Afternoon, Gretchen:
    I’ve been out and about all morning…just now got to the office to work awhile before ‘St. Patrick’s dinner’, at our church….FBC of Elgin. A of us ‘Old Timers’ have great dinner and entertainment every year, etc. [we’re really The Prime Timers—–I just call us the ‘old timers’, just to her some of the complain in jest].

    Now back to you post and esxpecailly the first paragraph….I would never dream that you would have a concern about ‘apathy and engaging’. You always seem to be a bundle of energy and act as though you have “the world by the tail on a down grade”. (That’s a southern Illinois expression)! I’m glad that you can be so open and transparent. And, you are a great witness.

    And, your post reminds me how we are supposed to always pray for one another. Have a great weekend ..enjoy the beautiful weather and your iPod—-and who knows, the little ducklings may be hedre soon!!! Keep up the good work!


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