There is a battle inside me each day.  Will I go forward and climb out of the darkness or will I remain where I am in the muck and mire? It would seem that every time I am making strides to change my actions, my heart, or my habits I cannot seem to severe the tangled lines and lies that keep me in the mire.

As I work to find the joy I once felt and the close relationship I once had with my Jesus, I find the battle intensifies.  I hear a constant babble in my ear of all the times I have failed, of all the times I have fallen down and not gotten back up.  Or I hear of the times when my words didn’t match my actions and that no one would believe me in the future.

Part of breaking free from the past is finding a new song to sing, a new voice in the ear.  Remembering that Jesus’ Love and Grace for me, comes from the Infinite Source- God our Father. It helps me re-frame my heart, my focus, and yes, my view of myself.

When I see myself through the eyes of Heaven I remember that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14).  I remember that I am God’s workmanship (Ephesians 2:10).  I remember that there is nothing, nothing, nothing that will separate me from the Love of God which is in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:38-39).

I know Jesus loves me, (Psalm 43:4) and that He will never leave me or forsake me (Hebrews 13:5).  It is just that I forget.  That is why these verses are memorized– whenever I tend to lose sight of the God of the Universe and His love for me, I hear these words creep into my heart.

The battle I mentioned then takes the turn and it becomes more and more obvious that I am a Child of the One True King and He loves me.  I can sing with confidence, Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me… 

The home run of this truth was knocked out of the park by this quote in my news feed today. “The devil will try to fill your head with your own limitations, but God is a limitless God! ~Christine Caine

I don’t have to ever, ever, ever try to walk into a battle with my own flimsy armor. My Heavenly Father is in charge of Heavenly Armies and will fight my battles for me.  I just have to hand Him my sword and shield and step off the battlefield.  He has this battle won every time.

So I will rest.  Rest in the promises of my God and know that His abilities are limitless, even when I feel limited.

Praise the Lord for His goodness to us.



About gretchenr17

Wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend. Writer, farmer, fellow sojourner... at every turn I learn a bit more about God's wild mercies.
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