I had a chat with a wonderful woman yesterday. As I shared what I was learning through my counseling, she asked if the counselor had ever commented on how strong I was. I cut her off mid-sentence. “No,” I said, “And I don’t want her to, either. My attitude toward strength is what has been part of my trouble.”
I have long believed that my world would fall apart if I didn’t try to hold it all together. If I admitted I couldn’t do something, handle something, put up with something, I would be called a failure. Somehow, I saw myself as the glue for the world.
What a lie.
No where in Scripture does it say, “Gretchen, you have to carry the weight of it all on your shoulders.” It does say, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light” (Matthew 11:28-30).
By admitting that I am tired, that I need help, that I cannot do this life on my own willpower, I am actually allowing the strength of God to come into my situation. Paul said it best, But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong” (2 Corinthians 12:9-10- bold mine).
I can stand in my weakness because my God is the strength that holds me up. I don’t have to have it all together. God holds it all together– He has my life, my future, my family, my situation all in His hands.
I will stand weak, for in Him I am strong.