Someone close to me has recently cut ties due to a disagreement (no, not related to the recent election). I have been praying for wisdom, kindness, mercy, and forgiveness to cover both of us and that God will move between us so reconciliation can occur. The problem is that the other person is choosing to stay angry instead of deciding to come together.
This person matters to me. We have shared years and experiences together, some joyful, some with sorrow. But I am stuck with the fact that I may not have this person in my life going forward. While on some points that would make things easier, it also makes it more difficult.
I tried to explain how I felt about this situation with a mentor but I was having a hard time with it. My mentor said, “You’re having trouble knowing where to put it, aren’t you?” I smiled. It was true. I didn’t know if I should put this in the shrug it off category, the respond with grace category, or the so you wanna go there? category.
I decided that the best thing I could do was to Tell God about it. I don’t have to understand the heart of the other person. I don’t have to try to categorize their behavior. I don’t even have to like the situation we are in or wonder if the other person even cares to reconcile.
God is who I need to turn to about this. I can yell, rant, rave, cry, laugh, whisper, or be silent about it and He will understand. Psalm 73:23-24 describes it well; Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. I can put my situation, my heart, my faith, my very life in God’s hand because He holds me.
O Best Beloved, in the past week I have watched so many people get angry with others about perceptions they have of each other. Instead of looking at the history of their relationship and recognizing that the way they have treated each other, loving and caring for each other, should withstand a disagreement. Even an election.
Dearest Jesus, meet us here. We are sad, angry, even afraid that things will never be restored between us and our loved ones. I pray for healing, mercy, grace, and forgiveness to fill in the gap and build a bridge of reconciliation between us. Jesus, be in our place where we cannot stand. Amen.