Over the last twelve months I have been in counseling for my anxiety and other residual issues related to the anxiety. I have worked through the roots of the issues, the false beliefs that trying to please others to make them happy will somehow work, and ultimately, learning the boundaries for what I can control and what I cannot control.
At my meeting yesterday, I described the way I felt when I arrived in her office last year. I was fearful and overwhelmed with all of the “should haves/could haves” in my past. I felt much like an inexperienced soldier in the middle of a fierce battle. The chaos of gunfire, smoke, and shouting surrounding me. The cacophony of sound preventing me from finding safety and my true direction. It seemed like I would never find my way out.
Contrast that with now, when I am standing on the overlook, viewing the battle below. I can see the scrimmages between what is true and what is not. I can see that some approaches to the battle need to be readjusted, that some forces are succeeding in their advance to conquer the territory. It is a welcome change in perspective and learning how to see things from a new angle, seeing the bigger picture.
During the time of Elisha in 2 Kings, he faced much opposition because he stood for God when the Israelites turned away from God’s guidance. In chapter 6 Elisha was being pursued by an evil king with the intent to capture and kill him.
When the servant of the man of God got up early and went out, he discovered an army with horses and chariots surrounding the city. So he asked Elisha, “Oh, my master, what are we to do?”
Elisha said, “Don’t be afraid, for those who are with us outnumber those who are with them.”
Then Elisha prayed, “Lord, please open his eyes and let him see.” So the Lord opened the servant’s eyes. He looked and saw that the mountain was covered with horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha.
The servant’s perspective was here in the finite world, but Elisha knew the eternal perspective- through Heaven’s eyes and that made the outlook very different. He knew because of his faith in God and all that He could do, that the enemy would fail.
So it is with me and can be with you, too. When fear tries to take over our view, our heart and mind, we can stop and pray that God will open our eyes to let us see what God sees. Our perspective in battle will be seen through the Victory of Christ on the Cross. We can remember that our struggles are, “producing for us an absolutely incomparable eternal weight of glory” (2 Corinthians 4:17).
Jesus is bigger, Jesus is stronger, Jesus is greater than anything we will face in this world so let us live with eyes that truly see.