defiant hearts

The older I get, the more I cross paths with people from different backgrounds. Most often, I can tell who has had some difficult experiences. They are quick to stand with clenched fists, eyes narrowed, scowling lines etch their faces, and their bodies are slightly leaned forward, ready for battle. When I see them, I often wonder, what happened to make you so hard? Who first put fists to you, that you learned how to greet the world in the same way?

I see their grief, loss, and sense of worthlessness developed into a heart that would defy the odds out of sheer will and tenacity. Over the years, they have chosen to beat others first, before allowing the fist to fall on them. They have endured the cruel words, the taunts, the loneliness, the feelings of being unwanted, unloved. They have decided on their own that they would never allow someone into their lives again, out of fear. Fear of being hurt, disappointed, or rejected again. These defiant hearts stand like stone, daring anything or anyone to break them down.

Jesus sees these dear, precious people for whom He died and He longs to draw them close to Him. He sees them standing like the toddlers who desperately want to fall asleep in safety, but cannot release the hold they have to stay awake. It is the ones whose hearts ache the most who need the love the most.

A precious person in my life has been battered and discarded by many who are supposed to be a bulwark and support in all things. Yet, this precious person finds those who should support are the very ones pulling out the beams below, causing dangerous falls. My heart longs, with a physical pulling, to draw this precious one close. To love, forgive, and encourage him to know who he is and Whose he is. To know that no pit, no mountain, no plain, no puddle, no ocean has to be experienced alone.

The defiant hearts don’t have to stand alone. Jesus is calling to them, He is having the believers call to them, to come. [My] love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on [you], [My] love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on [you], [My] love…

You see Dear Ones, when it comes to defiance, Jesus is the one Who is defiant. He was defiant over death, over the grave. The time to stop trying to stand on our own is now. Best Beloved, we don’t need to be alone anymore. We don’t need to try to find ways to do life as the Lone Ranger. We were made for community.

Will you allow your heart to finally collapse into the arms of your Heavenly Father? Will you allow Him to take your defiant, stone heart and replace it with a heart that will receive His love?


About gretchenr17

Wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend. Writer, farmer, fellow sojourner... at every turn I learn a bit more about God's wild mercies.
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