counting the cost

On the day I gave myself to Christ I said to Him, “I have made a complete mess of my life and I know that You can do better. So I am handing it over to You.” It was true, blunt, and exactly what I needed to say. If I had written a list to compare the pros and cons of becoming a Christian I still would have seen a similar outcome.

I knew on my own I was self destructive. Not every day, but enough to recognize that my brokenness, dysfunctional and co-dependent relationships, the anger, regret, and shame I harbored were eating away at me. If the Jesus I heard about, the Jesus I learned about was even half of what was said, then I wanted Him in my life. I wanted Him in charge of my life.

There are many who may say I needed a crutch and that’s what my Christianity is – a crutch. I completely disagree. I needed life-saving surgery. God/Jesus/the Holy Spirit, this faith, were offering me freedom from the chains I wore on my soul. I would not be restored by doing good deeds, giving away all that I had, or anything else. I could not fix the broken in my life. Jesus can.

Jesus knew all the brokenness that filled the world and He knew what it would cost to heal it- His very life. And against all selfishness, He gave His life. For me. For you. For your great-great grandmother and your great-great grandchild. No matter the mess we create, there is nothing that is so bad that Jesus cannot bring healing and wholeness.

He did it for me. He can do it for you.

He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!” Then he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.”

 He said to me: “It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I will give water without cost from the spring of the water of life.  Those who are victorious will inherit all this, and I will be their God and they will be my children” (Revelation 21:5-7).

He has paid it all. We were worth the cost.

About gretchenr17

Wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend. Writer, farmer, fellow sojourner... at every turn I learn a bit more about God's wild mercies.
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