the sun, the moon, and shooting stars

In these winter months sunshine means so much. It brings warmth, hope, and sweet light to our days. The sun as an object has the power and energy to change the atmosphere, time from night to day, to grow plants, crops, without it, nothing would exist. Nothing could exist.

By comparison, the moon has its own responsibilities, but on a lesser level. It effects the tide levels every day and it is used to mark seasons within the calendar year. But, the moon was never made to have its own light source. The moonlight comes from reflecting the sun’s light.

I have come face-to-face with the truth about my lack of trust this week. I cannot make my own sunshine.  I have operated under the illusion that I could make sunshine, but I just needed help to do it. My reality is that I was not made to make my own. I am to be like the moon, reflecting the Son’s light. Responding to the Light, taking in the warmth of the Holy Spirit and growing in His likeness (Luke 2:52).

It was jarring to hear that I can’t do things. Not that I was being kept from doing them, but that I don’t have the tools to do them and I never will. I never will. Ugh. Being brought up by strong women who instilled in me that I could do anything, this truth rattles against my heritage. I hear voices raging that I can too do that! Just show them! Instead, I would rather just hand off the things I cannot do and let them go.

On my morning drive this week, the sky was black and glittering with stars. As I watched the road ahead of me, I saw a flash in the sky. I had to recall the image to confirm I had seen it. A shooting star. I smiled at God for letting me see it. It was mine alone, no jumbo-tron screen to replay the image over and over again for those who missed it. I saw it and then it was gone. It was like a boost of hope for me from God Himself. My heart was lost in the dark and a sudden flash of light had given me direction and comfort. The shooting star was the flash I needed.

My prayer for 2018 is that I will not offer lip service to the things I need to let go of, trust in, rest in. I pray I will go deeper. I pray I will be more honest with myself and others. I pray for the strength to cry out when I cannot do something and then release the thing into the capable hands of the one God created to handle it.

Best Beloved, what are your prayers for 2018? Are you still praying to be the sun? Are you releasing yourself and becoming the moon? Dear Ones, I pray we will all remember what we were created to do- glorify our Father in Heaven and trust His purpose and plan for the life we have been given.


About gretchenr17

Wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend. Writer, farmer, fellow sojourner... at every turn I learn a bit more about God's wild mercies.
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