Like a swimmer coming up for air breaks through the surface, I feel like I am getting fresh oxygen for my spirit. Dear friends and family have been praying for me. I have been finding quiet time in different places during the day. God is re-entering my life and reminding me that waiting is part of growing too.
In the past few days I was given a devotional written by Louie Giglio focusing on Lamentations 3:26, It is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD. The content reminded me that God is still moving around me and in me, even if I can’t feel it or see Him moving. He is always moving within the world, for His purposes and His glory. It is our finite selves which cannot recognize Him as it happens. So, it is time to reassess my perspective of this time of waiting. Waiting to have the home renovations/ restoration completed. For the changes in my heart toward my current schedules and responsibilities, I need to trust that God is working everything for good (Ephesians 8:28).
Instead of whining that I don’t have what I want I am praying for me to see that God has provided for everything I need. I will see that God is enough. He doesn’t change and hasn’t changed. That’s the thing. No matter what is happening in my fickle self God has not changed – He cannot change. God is ever faithful. He loves me and that cannot be changed by my whiny attitude, my exhaustion, my doubt.
Ephesians 2:10 says that I am a masterpiece, created by God Himself. Believing that to be true, then I am also believing that He will not just discard me when I get dusty from skipping time in prayer. He will not let my self-inflicted doubts and blemishes remain, but instead He will clean me and restore me to new – every day (Lamentations 3:22-23). If I read on to the next verse, I will see the very answer to the conundrum I have been wrestling with for weeks. I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” Just as God provided manna in the wilderness, God is providing my daily portion. My only responsibility is to receive it. That’s it. Just like the Grace I received when I first started my Faith journey, I am to receive the very thing I need to go through the day. Not for yesterday and not for tomorrow– but for today.That is what is enough. As it says in the beautiful hymn, Great is Thy Faithfulness, God gives us the strength we need for today and the hope we hold to for tomorrow. Ephesians 1:18-20 is the prayer my mom often prays over all of her children and grandchildren– this is my prayer for me and for you, Best Beloved.
I pray that the eyes of your heart will be enlightened so you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the glorious riches of His inheritance among the saints and what is the immeasurable greatness of His power to us who believe, according to the working of His vast strength. He demonstrated this power in the Messiah by raising Him from the dead and seating Him at His right hand in the heavens– (HCSB).
May we remember to trust Him for what we cannot see, thank Him for what we can see, and praise Him for where we are right now. Then we will break on through…