Today is one of those perfect days. I woke up to find sunshine peeking out of the clouds, the temperature is perfect for open windows, songs turned up on the radio. It is a wonderful way to begin a Friday.
I am able to sit at my desk at work and listen to music with my headphones and today, I picked Rend Collective and some other music with an uplifting beat. My only concern is that I will become too engrossed in the music and start to sing out loud. It’s a risk I am willing to take.
The past week or so has been stressful and irritating to me. We are smack in the middle of the renovation/ restoration of our house and it is crazy and chaotic. We are hosting our son’s graduation celebration and family is coming to stay with us in less than ten days. I have allowed the pressure of “perfect” push me into the corner.
Until this morning.
We live surrounded by farmland. Many of them homesteads for over a hundred years old, complete with the barns, out buildings, and occasional windmills. As I drove down the road today, I saw such an awe-inspiring view that I pulled over and took a picture.
It was in this moment that I let out the hurry I was feeling and let in the sweetness of the morning. The warm, gentle breeze, the pure breath I took in; I closed my eyes and just allowed myself to feel the whole experience.
That is exactly what I am choosing now. I have a house in the middle of construction, a son graduating high school, another one home from college, and then the normal schedule to follow. I could allow myself to get fully wrapped up and become overtaken with the activities.
There was a time that I would have done that. Now, I am practicing the letting it in and out. The sentence, “I don’t know. When I am supposed to know something then I will find out.” It makes some people frustrated that I don’t know every answer.
I find it freeing.
Best Beloved, what do you need to be freed from today? It’s time to let it go, put it down, walk away. Come with me and close your eyes, draw in a deep breath, and let it go. Take a walk around the block, in a garden, in the woods. Wherever you feel free.
It is not our job to control, worry, or fret. It is our job to trust that God’s power, strength, love, mercy, is enough.
Let us fall into the arms of Christ and find the very rest we have needed.
Let it in, let it out, let it go. He has us.
Numbers 6:24-6 says it best:
‘“The Lord bless you
and keep you;
the Lord make his face shine on you
and be gracious to you;
the Lord turn his face toward you
and give you peace.”’