I was reminded recently how fear can make a person a fool. For the past three years I have been working on growing my faith and courage and shrinking my anxiety. My journey with this and through this, has been documented here as I have learned how to move forward. This past week though, one would have thought I forgot everything I had learned.
In a moment of weakness, I chose not to trust someone and decided to try to control something that was never mine. When it was brought to my attention I felt foolish. I knew the person was trustworthy, I knew I had jumped ahead by trying to control what wasn’t mine.
The devotional the next day reassured me that I was right to refocus myself on faith and courage instead of fear. Isaiah 12:2; Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The LORD, the LORD, is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation.
I had forgotten my song.
When I do not remain focused on the God I say I follow, then I start to wander, much like a child in a toy store. Too focused on the items around them to find the person whose hand they are supposed to be holding. As we all know the first thing that happens to that child when they realize they lost their parent, they start to panic. Much like I did the other day. I let fear dictate my reaction, instead of faith.
My devotion went on; The battle for control of your mind is fierce, and years of worry have made you vulnerable to the enemy. I found myself remembering how many years anxiety had plagued me, how many years I had spent fretting and worrying about the opinions of others instead of focusing on the God I love. His opinion of me is all that will ever matter.
As I reframed my perspective, I remembered yet another verse I had learned as a young believer, 2 Corinthians 10:5b; take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. To be vigilant, in my heart, my life, and my mind, means I have to watch what I am doing and remember that whatever crosses my mind and heart, is to be taken captive for obedience to Christ and to not allow the enemy one more inch into the life that I have handed over to God.
Best Beloved, what are you needing to take captive? What has wandered away in your life? Let us agree to do a search, to gather it back, and putting into the hand of Christ. When we do this very thing, then we will experience the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace (Romans 8:6).