My second son is leaving today. My hubby and I just dropped him off at the airport to fly to the west coast. I am not a weepy person- but letting go of the children I carried, nurtured, taught, and comforted is not for the faint of heart.
I homeschooled them, taught them later in private school, and finally, released them into public school during different seasons. In each case, I yearned to live out Deuteronomy 6:4-9, “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates.”
As my hubby and I drove away from the airport, I realized once again, I was not entrusting our son to another person, I was handing him to God.
Ever since I knew I was pregnant with my children, I have prayed for them, for their health, for their future, but most importantly, I prayed for their faith walk.
I prayed for their legacy to be -not of money, accolades, or their names on a building- but for them to live out Matthew 22:37, “Jesus replied, ” ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ ”
I prayed for them to live a Micah 6:8 life, He has shown you O man what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God.
It doesn’t matter if our sons go to college or enter the workforce or go on an adventure across the country. Where they place their steps in faith is what is important.
I have many friends who have posted pictures of their children going off to college for the first time. Many parents who are smiling and proud of their your man or woman as they step into the next adventure.
Boxes, suitcases, and supplies have all been packed and labeled, but the most important label is what is not visible to the human eye. It’s the label on the heart, of who resides there. Is is self or is it God?
When our sons were young, they memorized the verses below. I have their initials written next to these verses in my Bible, to remember that God’s word is hidden in their hearts (Psalm 119:11).
““But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.””
Jeremiah 17:7-8 (youngest son’s verse).
“Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, “Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain.” And God granted his request.”
1 Chronicles 4:10 (oldest son’s verse).
My heart is aching a bit as today marks the beginning of life again as husband and wife, not Mommy or Daddy. But the ache is also comforted because I know into Whose hands I have placed our sons.
The hands of our Heavenly Father, the best place our sons can be.