Here

I’ve been having a lot of weird dreams lately. Dreams about farming and livestock and animals we’ve never had. Pigs, seahorses, reptiles, and sheep, all kept in unrealistic pens. It always makes for a distorted wake up the next morning.

But then there are the daydreams I find myself having at quiet moments. Thoughts of how I would spend the lottery winnings if I won the jackpot. Of the healing that would finally happen for the broken relationships I see daily.

I understand that my mind is sorting things from my day, like the sorting hat at Hogwarts, but I also realize the danger of too many daydreams and not enough reality. I have watched men and women who chose to focus on the way they wished things were in their lives, instead of creating an environment where they could come to fruition.

When we think of Heaven, it is often imagined as that place where what we want will finally come true. That is the wrong approach. Heaven is where we will be whole, fully known, fully knowing, without scar or blemish, without sin or shame, without regret or sorrow. We will know the entirety of God – no filters.

The strength, depth, and breadth of the Trinity’s character and glory will not be hidden from view. We will be fully present in His presence fully. Which brings my heart and mind back to now.

There is only one way I know to prepare myself for that day. It is to be fully here, now. Jim Elliot said, Wherever you are, be all there. That is what I mean. I cannot spend my days wishing for the farm to be pristine or for those who are far from God to be drawn into a relationship with Him. The very changes I long to see and experience must be worked through, worked for, prayed for, in order to have a different outcome.

I long to be all there, but I need to be all here, too. So I will get on my knees for those who are lost and broken, instead of just wishing for their healing. I will work toward the dreams my husband and I have for the farm we live on, to bring them into existence.

It will not be my own power and determination that brings it into reality. It must be done through God’s perfect design and plan. I also know that if those dreams are to become reality, the first and best thing to do is to hand them off to God. To first seek His face, His plan, His purpose. When I seek Him first, the rest will fall into place.

Join me, won’t you, Best Beloved, in seeking God’s wisdom, direction, and instruction?

About gretchenr17

Wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend. Writer, farmer, fellow sojourner... at every turn I learn a bit more about God's wild mercies.
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