Walking with God and growing in my faith is something I yearn to do well. There are days when I “phone it in” and days when I roll up my sleeves. Then I have days when it seems like I am tangled in a mess, like the knots I get in yarn when I knit. These are the days when it seems that every time I turn toward something and begin to go forward, I get stuck.
I start deciding that I know the route to take, the turns to make, the place where God is leading me, so I start moving and forget that this is not a decision I should make on my own. God is with me and I need to remember to be with Him in silence to listen and prayer to seek wisdom. The more I pull ahead, the more I get left behind. It’s the same way when I am knitting.
When I am focused on my needles, my stitch count, and whether it is time to purl or time to knit, my pattern is even and my stitches are smooth. When I try to knit while watching a television program, especially one in which I am invested, my pattern starts to fall apart, I purl when I should knit, I knit too many stitches, and I end up taking it apart to rework the pattern correctly.
God knows the plans He has for me (Jeremiah 29:11) and it is not my job to try to tell Him where I think His plans need to be corrected. Being faithful to Him and obedient to His word and direction are the only way to grow and mature in the faith I claim.
Deuteronomy 30:16 says, For I am commanding you today to love the Lord your God, to walk in His ways, to keep His commands, statutes, and ordinances, so that you may live and multiply, and the Lord your God may bless you in the land you are entering to possess (HCSB).
I have heard God answer prayers with “No,” and I have heard Him answer with “Wait.” The problem arises when I decide to change His answer to one I want to hear. Being obedient to His direction will keep me out of the tangled messes I tend to make on my own.
Best Beloved, how are you doing on your faith journey? Are you running ahead only to fall behind? Are you trying to focus on other things instead of the task at hand or the task in your hands?
Stop trying to complete the journey ahead of time. It isn’t a race against a clock, it’s a lifetime process. Listen to His voice when He says, “No,” and trust Him. He is the best at untangling our messes.