These past weeks at home have been a blessing that opens up more and more each day. Aside from the tasks that I have finished and of course the job applications and interviews I have completed, I have been enjoying the peace of this season. No excessive stress, no negativity, just sounds of simplicity. Birdsongs in the morning, thunderstorms that light the sky, and the breeze that blows through our cedars.
My mom came to visit and we attended a women’ conference last weekend. I enjoyed the time with her, “just us girls” for a couple days. She has always had an adventurous spirit and even as she gets older the spirit has not been lost. It is one of my favorite traits that I inherited and that my sons have as well.
My sweet and precious father has continued to encourage her adventures and in their fifty years of marriage they have had many. He is a gentle soul, like his grandfather, something I have grown to appreciate as he ages. Tenderness is a precious commodity today and I love that he shares it so graciously with his family.
I have one brother, five years younger, the dearest person in my life, outside my hubby and sons. I am blessed with the history and the time we have spent together in our lives. He is my first ally, alibi, and cohort in shenanigans. I have been able to watch his love for his children again and again as they grow. I am so proud of the man he has become. It has been quite the journey.
In the weeks that have passed, I have been encouraged and supported by my dearest hubby. Something I do not take for granted and something I celebrate often. His understanding and insight have helped me as long as I can remember. After nearly thirty years of our journey as both friends and spouses, I know I would choose him again, everyday.
I realize there are many people who might be anxious and worried about losing a job and seeking a new one. Sure, I could be one of them. Yet, the joy I feel was not lost when I turned in my ID. My worth and my value were not linked to the position I held. I am certain it has been filled already, actually. I know who I am. Whose I am.
In this season I have been reaffirmed that God is not surprised by these events. He is not ashamed or disappointed in me. He loves me. I am His child, precious and prized and valued and loved and treasured above all things. Resting in this fact has allowed me to let the anxiety I could feel to wash off and remain in His peace and joy.
Best Beloved, I do not know the season you are in right now. It may be a season of sorrow, of completion, of beginnings, or even joy. Whatever you are facing, you are not alone. He is there with you. He loves you. No shame. No condemnation. Seek Him. He is waiting to speak into your life.
“For I know the plans I have for you” — this is the Lord’s declaration — “plans for your welfare, not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. You will call to Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you” — this is the Lord’s declaration — “and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the nations and places where I banished you” — this is the Lord’s declaration. “I will restore you to the place I deported you from,”” (Jeremiah 29:11-14 HCSB, bold mine).
If God has already declared it, then it is time to live in this truth. We do not need to seek answers, just seek Him and enjoy the sweetness of the season.