I throw no stones here, this is my personal story.
I woke up around midnight to the song All of Me sung by Billie Holiday playing over and over again in my head. I got out of bed, took a long drink of water, trying to shake the song so I could go back to sleep.
Not a chance.
After a couple of minutes, I went to Scripture to see what might be triggering the song. I googled “all of me Scripture” and the first option that came was Psalm 139.
Oh. Okay, Lord, I thought.
I was conceived when out-of-wedlock pregnancies were a mark of poor morals and shameful behavior. My parents were young college students and very much in love. My mom became pregnant. The mentality at the time was, remove the scandal before it becomes a scandal. Which is what was attempted. However, for reasons only known to God, the abortion was unsuccessful.
When my mom learned she was still pregnant, she told my grandparents. Through a series of events it was agreed my mom would go forward with the pregnancy. My parents married and in a few months I was born.
As I read Psalm 139 tonight, I read it in the NIV, HCSB, KJV, and finally, The Message by Eugene Peterson.
“You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day,” (Psalm 139:15-16 MSG, bold mine).
My life, these past fifty years, have been full of moments where God has taken me from nothing to something. My very life, my salvation, my marriage. My growth as a believer, the move to Nebraska five years ago.
Each time there was a point where it seemed as though there was absolutely nothing. No hope, only sorrow and shame. No future, only a repeat of failure. No love, only loneliness.
But God is a Redeemer.
His Story throughout the Bible is full of this truth. He redeemed Adam and Eve after they sinned. He redeemed Abraham and Sarah after their disobedience with Hagar. God redeemed Israel from their stubbornness throughout the Exodus.
God offers all of us redemption through Christ’s death and resurrection, even to this very moment.
He took nothing and made me into something. Something special, something wonderful, something good. Something- someone who has had all of herself redeemed. Restored. Renewed. All by the very grace and power of Christ.
When my folks became believers in the 1970’s, they listened to the Gaithers, the contemporary Christian music of the period. Gloria Gaither and her husband, Bill, wrote songs for children to learn about God’s love and plan as well.
This is the chorus to You’re Something Special:
That’s why He made you special
You’re the only one of your kind
God gave me a body and a bright healthy mind
He has a special purpose that He wants you to find
So He made me something special
I’m the only one of my kind
***from the Gaithers’ album, I am a Promise (1979)***
Best Beloved, I have no idea what your personal story may be. I do know, you are here. You do have a purpose. You are precious, and prized, and valued, and loved, and the world would not be the same without you in it.
You are special.
I pray you will know the love He has for you, receive it and be redeemed by it.