The only way to know who you are in Christ is to know what He thinks about you. If you know what God has to say about you, then the lies of the enemy seem silly. (From day 2 of the devotional, The Veil, on the You Version Bible app).
“Your eyes saw me when I was formless; all my days were written in Your book and planned before a single one of them began. God, how difficult Your thoughts are for me to comprehend; how vast their sum is! If I counted them, they would outnumber the grains of sand; when I wake up, I am still with You,” (Psalms 139:16-18 HCSB).
I have been quiet lately, trying to figure out next steps for me, how to be supportive and encouraging for my husband as he works through his own things. For the past few weeks I have been like the 98-pound weakling trying to pick up the strong man’s weights. A ridiculous and pitiful sight to see. I’ve been wallowing in self doubt, an unfounded sense of abandonment, just giving in to any and all manner of irrational thought.
I have emotionally exhausted both myself and my dear hubby in the process.
A friend’s son was a powerful and tenacious wrestler throughout his childhood years and into high school as well. He held fast when he put his opponent in a hold, he could adjust and counter the counter-moves of the other wrestler. The joy he felt in winning a very long match encouraged me and re-lit a fire in my soul. I have been approaching the funk all wrong. For too long.
I had been listening to the enemy. Every whisper suggesting now that my husband had come out, he was going to leave me. No matter what my hubby said, I couldn’t believe him. Even though not a single thing showed contrary to his commitment to me and to our marriage vows. I still believed the Liar whispering in my ear. I had forgotten the Truth.
I had forgotten that when tendrils begin to curl around my thoughts, pulling and tugging me away from the Truth of who I am and Whose I am, I am armed with the Sword of Truth, which has power to cut through the lies. I had forgotten who my opponent was and what I needed to defeat him.
“Finally, be strengthened by the Lord and by His vast strength. Put on the full armor of God so that you can stand against the tactics of the Devil. For our battle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the world powers of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavens. This is why you must take up the full armor of God, so that you may be able to resist in the evil day, and having prepared everything, to take your stand,” (Ephesians 6:10-13 HCSB, bold mine).
The King James Version puts Ephesians 6:12 this way, “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places,” (Ephesians 6:12 KJV, bold mine).
We are wrestlers on the mat, going for the pin, having to counter our opponent and maintain our strength as we listen for our Coach’s voice to instruct us. As I mentioned in the post, Coffee Grinders, as a wrestler I need to remember to move my legs, to switch the power from the top wrestler to me, the one on the bottom.
It’s time for me to tune my ears again, to hear my Coach. To hear Him remind me that my battle with the enemy has already been won by Christ. I am on the mat to gain wisdom and strength for my journey with Him.
It’s time to put my armor back on, to remember that in my weakness Christ is made strong. His strength is what will and has won the battle.
“But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Therefore, I will most gladly boast all the more about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may reside in me,” (2 Corinthians 12:9 HCSB).
What about you, Best Beloved? Are you hitting the mat, confident in your success? Or are you the weakling waiting to be pounded by the opponent? Let us tune our ears to our Coach and remember He already has the ultimate Victory.